endings

endings. written on 19 march 2008

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there are different kinds of endings for different kinds of stories. the ones that have closure are the ones that i like most. i dont like it when after sitting for one and a half hours, or at times, more than two hours inside the movie house waiting for the movie the conclude, the screen just goes blank and then the credits starts rolling and the lights turn back on then it would leave you asking…"um, so ano nangyari?" and then the credits keep rolling, people starts to leave and the moment kinda tells you, go figure! i mean, the writer suddenly gives you the freedom to end the movie however and whichever way you want it to end. i’ve even experienced sitting again and hoping that somewhere maybe half way through the credits they change their minds and show you how they ended the movie but they never do? well. 

or there are endings when you thought its finished and then few more scenes flashes and then it leaves you, "ok, so merong part II" or "okay, so meron pang part III" and so on. which sometimes i dont mind but sometimes, you just want to…like i said earlier, conclude.

or there are times when you just get caught and so attached with a story, you just dont want it to end. or at least you cant seem to get over it. i mean you’ve left the movie house, you’re having dinner or coffee with friends, and you guys are still talking about the movie tipong, di ka maka-recover type of thing. but of course eventually, you reach your saturation point and you stop talking about it kasi pag hindi, iba na yan! but then you just know that, that movie qualifies in your kahit-paulit-ulit-ko-panoorin movie list.

or there are also stories that are too dragging. maybe at first it started okay, but half way through, you feel like its testing your patience - sometimes, you end the movie (you stayed bec you paid and you might as well get your money’s worth or you’re just one of those positive thinkers hoping the movie might still deliver); sometimes you just fall asleep (thank goodness they turned the light back on and it woke you up hopefully with all your valuables still with you); sometimes you just give up and you walk out of the movie house. but in rare cases, dragging stories sometimes manages to pick up and entertain you.

okay, so in real life. i think these also happens. there are things, chapters and stories in our lives that end exactly the way we want them to be and sometimes they dont.

lately, there are chapters in my life that have reached its ending and some are almost ending…

> acad units. yes. tapos na ko finally! but im super going to miss the friends ive made in grad school. at special mention si julian at emily. i will probably also miss attending classes or i probably wont. hehe. but i will definitely miss hanging out, laughing, pouring out thoughts, exchanging stories and inside jokes with angel and mhyls.

> counseling. been doing this for four years now…not too long, i know but im taking a break from it for a while. explore options.

> work. i will miss my office. i will miss the people that i work with - the guidance people and our heads. my students. the parents as well. the interaction. the high of being able to help.

> romantic relationship. it ended and it is what it is, no other comments. in my vocabulary, pack up na.

> comfort zone. i am at a process of leaving one of my comfort zones. will take a plunge in an unfamiliar ground. and im praying for continued guidance and courage.

well, some of these endings or almost endings have reached its conclusion and there’s closure, some still has its sequel, some of it are maybe too or have been too dragging, but there are some of it that i just dont want to end. well…as other people put it, life is a journey and there are more stories yet to unfold.

to be continued…