june: bride. groom. wedding bells. i do! originally posted on 9 may 2008.
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i read somewhere that June is a tricky month especially when you’re a little bit past your mid-twenties and wedding invitations are starting to fill your mailbox.
so yes. wedding blues starts to set in. questions like when will it be your turn to walk down the aisle comes up or…you sometimes find yourself asking if you still want to consider the idea at all.
majority of girls have a vision and have practically planned details of their weddings in their heads — the motif, the gown, the entourage, the music, the church, the works! thanks to fairytale books that fed their minds of happily ever after…okay, so now that sounded like its from someone who has developed a semblance of what others would call relationship-phobia - a cynic, skeptic way of looking at romantic relationships haha.
i guess that just stems from left and right witnessing couples separate for reasons like infidelity, cheating, falling out of love (if there was love to begin with — okay, okay so there was) and other reasons leading to separation.
im not saying though that all romantic relationships fail. i know people and i have friends who are deeply and truly in love and i couldn’t be happier for them. i mean, at least someone’s getting a good share of what romantic love is about, right? i guess i’ve just dropped out of the romantic-love-fan-list. on a personal note though, i love weddings! (i’ve just attended one last weekend and i’m about to attend a couple of more this month and the next) i love the wedding preparations, the ceremonies, and the perks that comes along with it…minus the groom. :D
yes. minus the groom because its hard to find a groom-to-be. because [im sure the ladies would agree as i say,] there’s a shortage of good men. there are those who can actually pretend to be good men, but they can only pose as one for a period of time and their true colors would eventually show. so they’re not really good men just good actors.
faithful, loving, sweet, smart, responsible, understanding, God-fearing, thoughtful, good looking, funny, financially stable men are — well, just a pigment of one’s imagination! nah…they exist but a significant number of them are either married or have their own boyfriends. :D
i actually sometimes play with the thought of having myself cloned, have it modified to be a man just so i can be sure that i’m with someone who wouldnt cheat on me and would treat me the way i deserve to be treated. true that it takes away the mystery and magic but im tempted not to care much about it, as long as it would spare me from getting hurt. but of course, as ideal as that sounds to me, thats not possible.
the risks in choosing someone is inevitable. the risk of getting hurt, rejected, disappointed, frustrated and the list goes on comes with that package. but at the same time, along with those risks is the chance of finding happiness, being cared for, being truly and unconditionally loved by someone that we can profoundly love in return.
so yes, at the back of my head, i still havent scratched my name off the romantic-love-fan-list yet. romantic relationships could still be my cup of tea…maybe just not now.
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comment/s:
hello shombs! here’s your blog’s number 1 fan! I really smiled after reading this…you know nmn kung anong love team ang sinusuportahan
nmin…hahaha…am really glad that you still want to do the “nuni nuni nuni..” hum…i miss you!
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